i’ll be there for you. #friends
"And you stood at the door
with your hands on my waist,
and you kissed me
like you meant it.
And I know
that you meant it.
"
with your hands on my waist,
and you kissed me
like you meant it.
And I know
that you meant it.
"
— Dashboard Confessional - “Hands Down”
dear husband pt. 1
dear husband,
some days i miss you more than others. i just wish that we could find each other. but for the time being i guess in order to do that i just need to keep plugging along and be the best me that i can be. i just always wonder where you are or what you are doing with your life. i just want to be with my better half. the one that completes me and makes me entirely happy. i can’t wait to have someone to always be with. do something with. someone who i can love whole heartily & who will love me the same way back.
i can’t wait to spend my friday nights with you. get take out. be at our little apartment. watching netflix or an old movie. cuddled up in our sweats. and all that will matter is that we’re with each other.
hope you’re doing well. miss you.
-a
"The future is scary, but you can’t run back to the past because it’s familiar"
— HIMYM
"I didn’t give up on my dream house, because that’s the thing about stupid decisions; we all make them, but time is funny and sometimes a little magical. It can take a stupid decision, and turn it into something else entirely."
— how i met your mother
perfection.
Every girl needs a brother like Ross, a friend like Joey and a boyfriend like Chandler.
(Source: thatwhiteyaris)
that song.
i love that song that puts you back in a place of time that you suddenly put the puzzle pieces back together for a few split seconds and remember everything that was happening at that moment in time. and then someone ruins the puzzle {aka the song ends} hate that.
-a
"Kids, I’ve been telling you the story of how I met your mother, and while there’s many things to learn from this story, this may be the biggest. The great moments of your life won’t necessarily be the things you do, they’ll also be the things that happen to you. Now, I’m not saying you can’t take action to affect the outcome of your life, you have to take action, and you will. But never forget that on any day, you can step out the front door and your whole life can change forever. You see, the universe has a plan kids, and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings, and it starts to rain. It’s a scary thought but it’s also kind of wonderful. All these little parts of the machine constantly working, making sure that you end up exactly where you’re supposed to be, exactly when you’re supposed to be there. The right place at the right time. .."
— himym
lost.
i thought this year would be different. that i would come out of my bad habits. and return to my good ones. to be doing the little things. to be happier. to be closer to my father in heaven. to be more fit. to eat healthier. i guess i need to stop thinking and put my words to action. i always do good for like three weeks and then something happens that drastically hurts me emotionally and then i crash.
right now i feel like noone is there for me. no one understands. i try to visit friends to confide in them. and they are busy. i understand. i just gave up so much recently. i am trying to get over certain issues and deal with depression. sometimes i just crash and need someone to love me. i want a friend who just shows up at my house. who cares all the time. i do know that i am blessed with great people in my life who are all there for a reason. sometimes i feel like i give and give and never get. it hurts me inside. i try to be the friend i want to have and it never happens. that probably sounds so selfish but its the truth. i want that best friend who we talk all the time, who wants to do random adventures all the time. who gets me. who knows when i am sad- when i don’t even have to say anything.
i just need to find “my person”.
you wont ever be lonely.
Life may not always go your way
And every once in awhile you might have a bad day
But I promise you now you won’t ever be lonely
The sky turns dark and everything goes wrong
Run to me and I’ll leave the light on
And I promise you now you won’t ever be lonely
For as long as I live
There will always be a place you belong
Here beside me
Heart and soul baby — you only
And I promise you now you won’t ever be lonely
It’s still gonna snow and it’s still gonna rain
The wind’s gonna blow on a cold winter day
And I promise you now you won’t ever be lonely
You’re safe from the world wrapped in my arms
And I’ll never let go
Baby, here’s where it starts
And I promise you now you won’t ever be lonely
Here’s a shoulder you can cry on
And a love you can rely on
For as long as I live
There will always be a place you belong
Here beside me
Heart and soul baby — you only
And I promise you now you won’t ever be lonely
No, no, you won’t ever be lonely
-andy griggs.
also,
i am over tying to care in a dating/friendship/talking to a guy relationship. it stings when they just leave you high and dry. i still can’t believe that d hasn’t talked to me in over a week, and seen me in a few. oh, and i hate facebook. i hate that i can see that he is hanging out with another girl. lesson learned: don’t’ get emotionally and physically involved too soon. don’t trust as easy. don’t open up. {it felt SO extremely good to finally talk to someone and have someone hold me} and to see the good in that person and see their potential and you think they’re one way. and now i am just waiting for him to prove me wrong.
i was greatful chelsea texted me tonight and wanted to do dinner. even though she may not understand everything, it was nice to have a friend there for me. to listen. even though i don’t tell all. it was nice to be distracted.
i was also thankful tonight to drive to the provo temple tonight and open my scriptures and read in moroni. it felt good. i know my father in heaven is aware of me. i just need to remember it more often. {Moroni 10:32} COME UNTO CHRIST and be perfected in him, and deny yourselves of all your ungodliness.
-a
